I won the Ugly Christmas sweater contest!
But this year, something's not quite the same. I suppose it started a few months ago when work got really hectic. Even my husband, who I'm sure rolls his eyes at my holiday addiction, was telling me he couldn't wait for Christmas. When I asked him why, he said it's because he knows that's when I'm happiest. I went to Target after Halloween and they were in full Christmas mode, but I just wasn't feeling the cheer.
My happy place...
If you've been following my blog for a while, you probably know that my husband is still in school. And has been for the past 5 years getting his engineering degree. We've had our struggles and it hasn't been easy living off one income, but we've survived. He's had good success finding internships and he's had a nice income since June. But now that it's time for him to line up a *real* job for after his graduation in December, things seem bleak.
Maybe it's my naive assumption that finding a job out of college as an engineer would be easy. I can't tell you how many people have told me "Oh, an engineer? He'll always have a job." Where are those when we need them? I've seen him go through a few rejections so far and it definitely doesn't get easier.
One job he's in the interview process for is a rotational program. 6 months in Texas, then 6 months somewhere else in the U.S. (we live in CA). It's too short a time for me to try to transfer to the area and the pay isn't enough where I could quit my job to go with him. 6 months living apart seems like a long time, I'm not sure how I'd handle it. Who will kill the spiders in the house for me?! And of course there are other jobs we're we'd have to relocate entirely.
My home, sweet home... but for how long?
If he can't line up a job in the next month or so, he's probably looking at being unemployed for January. Not exactly what we were expecting.
So that's the weight I've been dragging around. The uncertainty of it all is really stressing me out and making me lethargic and mopey. Definitely not my usual self. If you made it this far, thank you for listening to my ramblings. In the mean time, I've resolved to let the stress go and just focus on the holidays and my upcoming Disneyland/Tinker Bell trip. With ~10 weeks to go, you'd think I'd be way more excited!
Have any of you dealt with major life changes that are out of your control? How do you not let it affect the rest of your life?